Yesterday morning I ended up heaving my guts out. That hasn’t happened since last June (maybe July?) I felt it coming on and got an Ondansetron in me as soon as I recognized what was going on. I think it was either food poisoning, or because my blood sugar had been extremely high the night before. Anyway, this session was short, due to the Ondansetron. I was pretty worn out for the rest of the day though.
Today was better. Got some work done on some stuff, ran an errand for the wife, and got back into writing. I’m trying to build up the daily writing habit again. I’ve written off and on but not consistently enough.
It was difficult getting into the flow of writing. This one didn’t just pour out of my fingers the way many of the stories do. Of course, those stories rarely turn out the way I intended when I started them. They take on a life of their own and just come out, but they are usually the ones that readers like the most. It makes me wonder who is doing the writing, me or my Muse.
The writing today was a struggle. I’d start, write a few sentences, stop. It was hard to get things flowing.
Then I went back to look at what I’d written.
It was crap.
Now, I know it may not be crap. The story famously goes they Stephen King threw out his manuscript for Carrie because he thought it was horrible, but his wife fished it out of the garbage can and made him finish it. The rest is history.
It might be good stuff. Or it might just need to be revised.
The main thing is to not fall prey to the negative thoughts in my head about the quality of the work. The story isn’t finished. It can always be revised. But it needs to come out first.
Thinking of it as crap at this stage of the game is not a Good Thin ™. It’s way too early and that type of negativity is what kills good stories.
Onwards and upwards.
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