Here we are, one day from the end of 2025. Time just keeps flying by. It seems to fly even faster the longer I am in this world.
This past month seems like a whirlwind. Being sick, doing the holidays, getting things done at the new house. Its all kind of a blur at this point. I know one thing – I’ve done precious little on the writing front over the last month. This is not helping get the various writing projects I want to do done. I’m certainly not closer to getting the supernatural soap opera going. The Muse has been percolating on it in the background though.
And the rest of the year before that. Much of the autumn has been dealing with the asshat trying to screw us over on the house, as well as getting the new house in shape.
The summer was one big blur with the wife being hospitalized for most of it. Before that most of the beginning of the year was getting the house in Texas cleaned out, packed up, and ready to be vacated.
All big events. Things that took up a lot of time.
Isn’t that the way things go, though? Life just keeps throwing problems at you. You have to carve out the things that make your life worth living, working around the problems.
People keep telling me “Oh, you’d be so bored if you didn’t have obstacles and challenges to overcome in life.” Really? I’d like the chance to prove that theory wrong. I have more than enough things to do to keep me busy without having to deal with the “real world”. I’m supposed to be of an age that I can “retire” and “enjoy the good life”. And there are many good things about my life. I’ve got a loving wife, three goofy dogs, food, shelter, clothing. All the basics. There isn’t anything I should complain about.
Is this what Siddhartha Gautama experienced when he went to sit under the tree? Having all he needed in the world, yet still feeling a sense of dissatisfaction? Look what happened from that starting point.
I guess that I’m not feeling like … I’m not sure. Like I’m productive? Creative? Contributing to the world in any real meaningful way? Are any of the small daily acts I do helping?
The good thing is that every day is a new day to start over. I have remained fairly indestructible up until this point, and as long as I’m still on this side of the grave there’s a chance that I’ll make a difference.
Are you reflecting on the end of the year, my Hordeling? If so, leave a comment and let me know.
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